dear miss or mister or whomever who may concern,
listen.
i am the type of person who easily get bored and simply get envy by things that i dont like or in other words, my ego level is so so so high.
but, unfortunately, and badly, your care-ness which i dont know whether it is sincere enough or not, has unbeliveably defeated my ego.
well done, friend.
u really did a great job.


then,
when i have ACCIDENTLY fallen for u
i did everything i could including willingly to cut off my ego.
*SEEE? BETAPA AIDA SYG NYA GILA2?*


but sadly, u throw me away..
u treat me like i am ur pets or something
u always tell me lies
i know that. i can see it
like, why are u tyrin to fool me soo badly?
i have eyes to see, mouth to speak, ears to hear, and most of all
HEART to feel.
why dont u just be honest to me and clarify everything?
dont left me hanging
im not ur hanger -____-


chances by chances have i give to u
but u still with ur ego
ur style and ur attitude
u take me for granted
u dont appreciate me at all.
i feel damn sad and sorrow.
but you never care like i did to you
i always watch u from far
if only i can tell you
i swear, i would.


but i couldnt. i know i will loose u forever and ever i talk straight to u
thats why im writing this to my blog
for you to read
what it is actually in my heart
and for me, this is a big deal
i.. am not strong enough to tell people
even if they are my bestfriends
i rather keep it to myself
than burdening them with my stories and problems
i know they also got theirs to solve
i understand.


so now.. what am i suppose to do?
you left me misguided
i dont know what is it in ur heart
i am no superwoman
i got no power to read ur mind
or to impress u by my power
im just ordinary
can u accept and take me as i am?


u arent perfect either
so why do u have to judge
even Allah doesnt judge me the way u did
is it fair enough to me?


i am tryin to be gentle enough
whenever i speak or chat with u
just that, i cant bear to see u hurted by my words
but how bout u?
did you do the same?
the answer will probably be, NO


i guess
my prediction was true
u also have fallen for her
but u deny it. why did u lie to me?
why cant you b straight to the forward?
is it a very big sin if you do so?
i dont get it. really dont get it.


and i really really hate people who likes to deceive other people.
i think it is mean.
very very mean.
like, there is many options to choose.
but why do you have to tell lies?
i dont get it


so yeah friend
i am about to moving on
to find new life and new people
i dont care what people say
if they like me, they accept it my own way

thanks :)

and this is especially for you




my last smile for you
it is SINCERE :)
after this, there will be no more smile for you
even IF you see it through my fb
it is not for you and never be
im so sorry, you dissapoint me
there nothing i can do
we are not the perfect two

thanks for being my friend
my really really 'GOOD' friend
appreciate that
trillion times.


so
bubye dear
im sooo over it
dont ever see or text me again
muahx




XOXO AN

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